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Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Beautiful Puerto Rico
Tapas
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Lessons learned about packing
More contact lenses
Better flashlight
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Salar trip
Floating land
Hexagons
Funny perspective pictures
Salt hotel
Drinking games
Orange sunrise
Lagunas
Stone tree
Red water
Flamingos
Freezing cold
Hot springs
Swimming
Pancakes
Money for sleeping bag
Border crossing
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Coca
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Cuy
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Can't get no head
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Pisco Sour
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Everything I do is done for the eventual acceptance of my parents
I woke up with this thought.
It is my limiter.
It keeps me on the straight path, but also a narrow path.
Only when I am physically away from them do I sway from their approval, but only so far so that it is undetected due to the physical separation. Nothing directly or intended to be permanent.
I don't know whether I want to break this limiter or not.
Do I want to completely break the limit to test it? No I don't right now.
Not breaking the limiter makes me happy and it has kept me safely on the straight and narrow path, and I'm not sure if breaking the limiter will make me happier.
So I have to figure out if it's worth breaking using baby steps.
I could judge this on a case by case basis if I could identify something outside the limit that is something I want but they don't.
How do I figure out where my desire and their desire are not congruent? It is not a clear distinction in some cases.
How important is their happiness to me? How important is my happiness to them?
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Chile the island
There is a slight language difference there. The people also talk very very fast in general, almost like speedy Spanish.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Trust is a near impossible battle with me
I forgot what we were talking about but I guess the subject of the conversation is not relevant to this post.
Let's pretend it was prices on the food we were eating. They told me the price. I had to check the menu to make sure that was the price. Then Line, the girl, said "you really don't trust anybody do you?"
It's true. I don't trust anyone I've met on this trip really, except for a rare few that I've grown close to. It has to do with the fact that people's opinions have rarely lined up with mine. If someone says a certain location is an amazing place to visit, I don't usually assume they know what they're talking about anymore. My reaction is "I'm sure it's pretty nice but is it worth it?" I used to think people knew what they were talking about, back in July maybe, or maybe just in June when I was doing NZ.
For example, if someone today tells me Ipanema beach is amazing in Rio or using diction like "the best beach ever", I don't believe them. It's because if I do, I'm usually dissapointed. Not many people have seen as many different beaches as me, and we all have different tastes on what makes a beach awesome.
Back in NZ, when someone told me the beach is awesome, I'd believe them. Then I'd go there, and I would agree. But somewhere in Australia things started changing. I think it was diving in the Whitsunday Islands. Someone told me diving in the Whitsundays was amazing, even compared to the Great Barrier Reef. I dived there because of that. It sucked compared to the Great Barrier Reef. I was not feeling well during the GBR dives either. Remember I had that big skin infection and it was affecting my balance?
Add on top of that numerous people that I've come across either trying to steal my money from my pockets or swindle me over the counter or at their cart and my natural propensity to question people, and the product is me. Someone who just doesn't take any opinions or pretty much any statement anymore as something substantial unless it's backed up by a feeling inside of me that they know because they have the experience, they're being honest, or so many people say so that it's gotta be pretty close to correct.
I think what it was was that I started the trip with an open innocent mind about people. I told myself that I would keep myself open to other people and their thoughts. Then reality kicked back in as I got going a month later.
So when I got to Egypt, and someone randomly told me I *must* go diving in Dahab because it's comparable to doing the GBR with the number of fish and coral even though they've never been to the GBR, I nodded and said "ok" but I didn't really believe them. I don't want to insult them, so I don't tell them they're probably wrong, even though that's what I think.
I only believed Mario when he told me after taking his diving classes in Dahab that a few spots were good and the others nothing special. Mario is from Australia and has done the GBR. I just had a feeling his opinion would not dissappoint me.
This post is not about the fact that people are wrong. Right or wrong, it's really about the fact that I can't and don't trust people on a general basis. If I show trust prematurely, I'm feigning it. Like at work with people I don't know. I just do it because I have to. I was that way before I started traveling, and now I'm even less trusting while I'm going from place to place.
Last night was the first time in the last 10 months somebody just pointed that out to me. I was surprised to hear it. I agree though. It's true. I'm sure other people have noticed it, but just haven't said anything to me.
Finishing up some old posts
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
urbandictionary.com
It could actually be a handy dandy resource for people trying to figure out idioms and other slang in the English language, which of course would theoretically be a good resource for people like my cousins who are trying to learn English. However, the fact that so much of the site is not exactly a good influence prevents me from freely distributing it to everyone I think it might help. I feel that I have to sort of censor it in my mind and only tell people who I hope won't be negatively influenced by it, especially the younger folks.
Oh no, why did I post this on my blog! Eeks!
I trust that everyone who reads this is mature enough to handle the brunt of the intarweb(s).
If you are ever bored and want to spend your free time reading something slightly educational but mostly entertaining, then just scroll through urbandictionary.com.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Things I'm enjoying once again
Snickers ice cream bar
Taco bell (yup, had it already last night)
Driving
Television (I started watching the Hills this morning and then found myself having to force myself off the tv to go to a different beach today. Good thing I never watch tv at home.)
Listening to the radio
Karaoke (last night at the bar)
Not haggling
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Vroom Vroom
Driving here is fun. It's good to be in the driver's seat again. American road rules except all the signs are in Spanish. Totally awesome.
I drove into old town, parked in one of the public pay lots for $3 until 6am and then walked to the budget hotel that I had heard about from the tourist information office at the airport called San Juan Guesthouse.
The room will be $37 for tonight but I like it. It's got a big bed and air conditioning. The bathroom is shared. So basically it's a little more than the price of a private room in a hostel in Australia.
The owner of the guesthouse seems super cool. He's fluent in both english and spanish, like most people I've encountered here so far.
He recommended a less touristy place for me for dinner tonight. It's called El Jibarito. I ordered pan baked grouper for dinner and I'm waiting for it now. I exercised some Spanish with the waiter who I think is also the owner and now he is making me only speak Spanish to him so that I might learn some more. That's pretty hardcore of him, I appreciate it.
The city is seriously SO beautiful. I am loving this place already. Someday I will come back here for a month. There's supposed to be good diving here and good ocean fishing as well, for marlins and other types.
Woohoo
Love using my cell phone again :)
More oddities
I keep speaking to the bartender in Spanish because he looks latin and my brain is still in South America. He's responding in English. Hahahha
P.s. Yuengling beer tastes really really good.
I'm in Miami!
Also, it's super cool to be able to read both the English and the Spanish on all the signs in the airport. It's like extra credit or bonus points!
It's also nice to see AT&T on my phone.
There was a small spot on my form that asked me to list the countries I've been to before entering the US. When I saw that I literally sighed at the task before me. A woman nearby heard me and asked me if I needed help. When I asked her how to fit 15 countries in the box, she just told me to mark down Colombia and it would be ok.
Soon, I will have 3 hours in the business lounge waiting for my flight to Puerto Rico.
I'm entering the United States today
I can't wait to witness everything I miss, and also see how my trip has impacted my life.